Over the last few years I've lost something very precious.
Hope is that small voice whispering in your ear, "yes, there is light at the end of this tunnel", even when we can't see it. It pushes against the masses bellowing, "this will never end" or "you'll never make it."
I don't know when I began shutting out Hope's voice. Somewhere between faith and love perhaps? When I lost it I noticed my smiles never quite reached my eyes when I laughed. My prayers felt like hallow logs, only echoes of my wishes.
How can God answer my prayers when I feel like this? So...
How could He? I've stopped expecting him to answer. I've shut and barred the doors to my heart. But God doesn't base his love on what barriers I have created. He stands ready to knock down those walls at any moment and pull me out where the light chases away all shadows!
He doesn't base his love on how much I love him but on how much Christ loves me. Which most of you already know, loved me, us all, so much he died to save me from this prison sentence. This despair.
Paul wrote in Ephesians how we were once living apart from Christ, but now thanks to Jesus we know of his promises and can now hold on to those promises too.
I will never completely lose my hope because I will never lose Jesus who is the sustainer of all our hope. I am regaining that hope in Him, one step at a time, one hour, one moment at a time.
The past couple of weeks I have felt so much better than I have in a long time!
If you are struggling with a sense of hopelessness or depression then know I am saying a special prayer for you tonight. Let me tell you right now, in this very moment, you are not alone!
I hope to touch more on this subject in the weeks to come. Until then, be blessed and may Jesus be your hope tonight.
Listen to this song by Danny Gokey.
A friend shared this with me
after sharing my struggles and feelings
It lifted me and my spirits after a week of listening
and crying to this song!
I pray it lifts you up and fills you with hope!
In Jesus name I pray, AMEN.